figure it out

sometimes i wish i could just forget about everything and be happy.
why can't i just leave. i'm sick and tired of everything. i don't even know anymore. i hate how this makes me sad, i hate how it ruins my day, and i hate how it's keeping me from other things. i wanna figure things out. i don't want to be confused and worried anymore. this is making my life complicated. i don't know what to do anymore. i tried so hard, i really did. nothing i do can change how i feel. what did i get into to. this has never happened to me before. i don't know why i feel this way. and to think, i wanted this before.

i wish i could leave.